Behind the Design: This Stick Does Not Define Your Worth
I was asked recently why I created this design. I had posted it a few months back on Facebook and again a few weeks ago and it has been shared over 30,000 times. It spoke to many women, and I am so grateful and feel so blessed that God has used these gifts He has given me to make an impact on the world.
I drew up this design one night before bed. If you read my first blog post, you now know that I have four living children, so you may be thinking... "She's got four kids! She's apparently super fertile. Surely a negative pregnancy test wouldn't affect her."
Well, it definitely does.
I do have four wonderful, living children. I also found out I lost one when I was twelve weeks pregnant, and it was the strangest and deepest hurt I have ever experienced. After miscarrying, you always wonder if you are damaged in some way and your body is no longer able to create another human being. The one line on that pregnancy tests hurt then.
A little while my miscarriage, I finally got a double line! It was super exciting! Then at 18 weeks, I found out that the baby in my womb had spina bifida, and that news shook me to my core. I went on to have a healthy pregnancy and a beautiful baby boy who has taught me so much about life and the faithfulness of God (more about that in a blog post later)!
I was blessed with another baby boy after him. He will be two in October.
The thing about me and my husband is that we desperately want a big family. We will take all the tiny souls that the Lord deems us worthy to entrust to our care! We've been ready for a while now to have another and month after month it's been that one. red. line.
God put this drawing on my heart and these are the words He gave me to write that night:
I don’t know who needs to hear this tonight, but God laid this drawing on my heart so I feel someone needs this truth as they fall asleep tonight.
I consider myself a pretty fertile person. God has blessed me with four beautiful children (and one that beat me to heaven). However, I would be lying if I said there were not months when that one line on that stick did a number to me. Thoughts of “What’s wrong with me? I must be damaged goods...” came raging as those 3 minutes passed and no second line appeared.
So if you find yourself tonight anxiously awaiting the morning so you can pee on one of these sticks or maybe you already did multiple times today and continued to get the same result, know this:
That stick does not define your worth.
The same God that created the Universe formed and fashioned you in your mother’s womb. He knows all the inner-workings of your body, and He has created them in that way for His glory and for your ultimate good. You are not broken. You are not less-than. You are not worthless.
God has a plan for this season of your life, and He will complete it! 💕
Philippians 1:6 - “Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:”
So sweet friend, rest in confidence tonight.
For your worth was determined long before the world began!
As I said before, it's absolutely astounding to me how many people have been affected by it! So this blog post was kind of a ramble and all over the place, but I hope it gives you a better idea of where I was coming from when I was designing it.
If you ever have any questions about me or any parts of my journey, feel free to reach out! I am an open book. :)
Love this design? Find it in sticker-form here (perfect to put on your vanity or on your bathroom wall for those early morning pee sessions!):